IDI9 after death :)

Heavy traffic ,flooding of vehicles, fuming exhausts, roaring bikes, honking lorries, stagnant  buses, adding on to all this a guy dressed in white and brown uniform raises his hand with a red and green signal. The sun from above is scorching and the whole of the city stinks with sweat. No place to move, lined up in the huge traffic takes ur soul out. After a long wait in traffic one gets to his destiny. A youth was witnessing all this leaning on a lamp post. To reach office,school, or where ever it may be one has to struggle so much. Such complicated is life in city. Chennai is well known for the traffic and the youth just smiles thinking about it. Fine reaching the destiny is hectic so how is it from the place of destiny? he makes his way to one of his pal's office. There he finds his friend busy in work his shirt has got sweat marks and he is walking right  and left with headphones plugged in. So his friend was on a busy conversation who is a marketing manager, he spends most of his time on phone calls and meeting his clients on regular basis. So he is always engaged and is hard to catch up with a free time to chat. How about a clerk in his office? He will be relaxed, there wont be much of a work..To the youth's surprise the clerk was not there he was just moving like the rpm meter in bikes. He could find no possible way of the clerk resting a bit. So everyone is struggling for their existence be it a clerk or the owner of the company everyone is slogging for their lives. Though it is for the money still they strive for it. So as we know "NO PAIN NO GAIN".(Hmmm so what is this youth trying to tell me now? guys hold on i have my story on the bail)

Like every other youth he was naughty, enjoying himself partying, and his life was like the NH-4 highway so smooth. How come a youth can be so happy all the while there should be something big i am not watching a shankar movie where one can become the CM overnight. The youth shrugs y don’t u let me talk? Fine coming to the point ya i too have an other phase where life was dark. So what made ur life dark? eh...ya ok with tears filling the eyelids and his throat chocking he looks at us with pain in his eyes.

He begins with a query have u ever experienced the "Butterfly Effect" in ur life?Well what is that effect?.He said am sure everyone would have come across this effect and its nothing but "Love". So my love blossomed with romantic background score of ARR. She was beautiful elegant and lovely. She swept me off the moment i met her. It was during my first year of college that i happened to meet her. The way she talks, her cute expressions her smile, concern, care and love for others omg it impressed me and i confirmed myself that yes am in love with her. So finally i got the courage to express my love for her. She just smiled and left that place where i proposed her. And two weeks later i got a yes from my angel.wow "LOVE MAKES LIFE BEAUTIFUL" true indeed... things changed around me everything was beautiful, lovely. Days passed and the love had reached peaks of deep bonding. Well everything is fine so what is the pain u said u have in u? The youth shook his head down sobbing and tears flushing out he looked up and said she is no longer mine. What? I mean what are u telling? Everything was fine then what happened??? She just broke up saying it wont work... it surely wont, i don’t wanna hurt my parents and i really don’t like this happening around..and there is no hope settling it in the future...its done once and for all...I was dumped and life didn’t move on from there...It became so dry that there was no focus, no goals and was just living like an animal walking around places. I was feeling so bad for y this had happened for me.. with so many questions and no hope of what my future is i came to a conclusion which brought me peace.

What was it that brought peace again second love??? The youth smiled no not at all this is more than love…well with a confused look we ask him what is it??? I had lots of solutions in hand to solve my problem and i ll list out to u ppl.

1.Exsanguination

2.Drowning

3.Asphyxia

4.Hanging

5.Jumping

Well i chose to hang myself. What??? so who are we talking to???a ghost???The youth smiled with a twinkle in his eyes he said yes. I am Fernandes from chennai an Anglo Indian born in pondy and brought up in chennai. I have completed my degree in mechanical eng and was unemployed for a year. Today is the day i completed my graduation and almost a year as gone. So when did u die? Well today morning at 6am.But i realise committing suicide has not changed anything. I have only made things worser to my family and my lovable ones. Frustration, Depression, Hopelessness pushed me in and i felt that i am not a man of deeds.From the morning till now i had seen ppl struggling for existence and i didn’t give it a try i was just fixed with my failures and was completely in to it.I didn’t realize the saying "failures are stepping stone to success". Too late Mr.Fernandes u should have thought about it before committing suicide. And how are u talking to us right now??For all those worried faces and puzzled looks on ur faces am having this conversation with all of u through my friend Kaushik and i am possessing him right now..What?? yes this afternoon Mr.Kaushik was searching for the topic suicide in the webpage of Google and i happened to just move from my friend's office in nandanam and was loitering and i happened to feel this guy kaushik accessing on my article on google. I had posted it early 5 this morning so i was just watching him study my reason to commit suicide. I also sensed him taking statistical report on suicide cases. He was noting down the following

To his astonishment when he typed suicide in google he found a separate topic called South India-World's Suicide Capital!!!And clicking it gave him much more shock that Kerala a state of high literacy rate is ranking top in suicide too. Statistical reports say ppl here in south India commit suicide a step infact several steps more than north India though several cases are not registered there in the north. Suicide committed by women is more than men that is a sad part and above all we are ranking 1st so as a south Indian he was feeling so bad.So i decided to do something good atleast now and i made an agreement with Mr.kaushik on providing rights to share my experience as well as to say the ppl out there that "PL DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE" there is nothing impossible in this world, afterall it is full of ppl who are our brothers and sister if not one ll come to rescue. And i found one such brother - kaushik. U might ask how?its because he belongs to IDI9 and so he is one step smarter than IDI8.So it was this IDI9 who had to show some light on this IDI8 even after death.Pl dont commit suicide and help ppl around u. Counsel them and make this world a better place to live. My humble request to all readers i don’t want anymore cases like me in the future and my soul will rest in peace if each one of u can change atleast one individual's life and make him as a warrior so he saves the next and it ll go on. Bye guys nice chatting with u and thank you kaushik for making this IDI8 do something in par with IDI9 atleast now.
(Well what happened to me i just got up from a sleep and as i woke up i could see my monitor blinking at me with this story titled IDI9 after death.)