Trauma

A diary wrapped in a black cover,all its pages read one thing...


30 years back..
Andrew and Sweety-lovely married couple.Its been almost a year of their marriage and sweety is pregnant.Chennai is the place where they live and andrew is a business man.Most of the time sweety is alone with andrew doing business.Time passby and its the fourth month of her pregnancy...Dr advices her to take in healthy food and be free from anxiety and sensitive emotions..
Both of them are happy about the condition of the baby and four more months pass by without any emotional inconvenience.They have decided to name their baby Alex as they were sure it was a boy.They had this strong belief or maybe an instinct.Likely when they say alex,sweety would feel a kick,a josh in her.Sometimes,the kick will be hard that sweety would say... I think alex will become a football star..They were so passionate with each other and expressed the same to alex.
Its the last month of gestation and sweety was eagerly awaiting the day for alex,who will look at the world with his very own eyes..Sweety was excited...It was 9pm and the final pain a mother would experience in the last stages of pregnancy has come and sweety was taken to the hospital.Andrew was there nearby telling her hold on sweety we are going to see our "Alex".Whispering it in her ears,he kissed her fore-head and left the room.After 20 minutes a nurse came out congratulating "you are blessed with a son"and sweety is also fine..One more thing baby is healthy and he weighs 8 pounds!!
Hearing this andrew was filled with happiness and deep down in his heart,he was telling alex we knew its gonna be you.Anyways thanks for not disappointing us..The nurse told him to see alex after ten minutes.He started calling his relatives to share the happy news..After talking to quite a few ppl,he went inside the room.Sweety was in her consciousness with baby beside her.But surprisingly she was not looking at the baby instead she was facing andrew walking inside and with tears flowing out.With a puzzled look andrew came close to her and next second his face also had to shrink and become pale.He kissed her and left the room.The baby started crying and the relatives who had come to see the baby,also reacted the sameway..None of them lifted the baby and gave comfort..All of them felt one thing...
A diary wrapped in a black cover,all its pages read one thing...
"I AM BLACK"
There is deadman in the cell,lying flat on the floor with black robes over him and a diary nearby...Reports certify that he has died due to heart attack and he is a traumatic patient admitted 20 years back...
Andrew and sweety both of them were fair and with all the above dreams of baby being boy,footballer,alex etc they had got deep in their minds for their baby to be born "fair".They were not able to digest but anyways,time passed with no love and affection for alex..
The fact of being "BLACK"had penetrated deep in to alex that where ever he is seen,ppl would comment on his colour.Even ppl darker than him will tease and this very thought kept pricking him so deeply..He had his schooling in anglo-indian community where most of them were white and he had this issue on complextion.Ppl at school called him "NIGGER"...He grew up being reserved and complicated though he liked football and he wanted to learn it.But there again ppl were critising his colour,bringing an end to football...Alex grew up,but in his mind he was stuck with the thought of being black and that no one would love him at any cost.After 2 years this TRAUMA grew so intensively that he became mentally unstable and he stopped schooling...He was admitted in a mentally aided centre...
FCD-Fundamental Child Decison:-The fcd plays a vital role in the life of a child especially during the first 6yrs from birth.During this time,the child can learn at a very fast pace and it tries to mean what it sees,thereby it becomes a program for the child throughout...However this is bound to be stronger during the first 6hrs after the child had made its way out of the mother.Grooming a child is not an easy task anything like the case above can happen if decisons are of the negative shades..